when the man keeps proposing to me , I do have an impulse to say: yes! let's get married! I thought that I would feel safe with him. I thought I would out of fear forever. I can even imagin the life with him ten , even twenty years from now on. That is because I don't love him... If you married someone you are not that into him, you won't have the feeling of fear. We will fear about the future , fear about the collisions , fear about losing each other, because we love each other so deeply that we can't stand the feeling of heart broking. That is love.
Love , or life? I don't know how to choose...
这么深奥